Wednesday, May 28, 2008
23 May - 26 May
well. redang's like my second town,
and i never got tired of going there 'cause there's always something there waiting.
this time round's a different resort.
Redang Holiday to be precise.
definitely not as high class but more to a chalet type of resort,
but yeah, still get used to it within half a day.
more important's the sun sea & sand as usual.
had a amazing time there with the gang,
made another memorable and unforgettable trip once again.
it was always the sun, snorkelling, marine life, the beach, the food, booze, dance & the friends over there...
never stop having fun even when sleeping.
probably should mention how happy & pranky me and jiahui was feeling on the last night,
and decided to go on a prank spree,
that's to draw on the guys while they were asleep.
HAHA.
thus, producing the blusher king, colgate kings & eye-liner king.
LOL!
whole loads of fun definitely and i haven had time to upload the sabotage photos
but definitely will try to make time.
next trip's phuket trip next tuesday with darl.
hope it's gonna be fun too.
working starts tomorrow and i'm feeling lazy.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
i was just talking to lye yesterday 'bout the numbers of natural disasters increasing,
from cyclones to high-scale earthquakes.
it's saddening to see people die and seeing those alive weeping for their friends/family.
the day shin went to china was the day/ 2nd day the earthquake strike,
now that china's in a mess,
i hope she's fine and better come back in 1 piece, i know she will. =D
then me & lye was discussing that if one day just a tiny-whiny earthquake was to strike SG,
i guess we shall see each other somewhere in heaven or hell,
'cause we don't think there will be any survivors,
except probably those who happened to be overseas/ in JB pumping petrol.
i know i am bored.
but it's a saturday and i am bored at home.
says it all.
no long weekend again though i'll be off on monday too. helloooo public holidays.
it's not like those banquet days when public holidays were just another working day,
now the only days i look forward each week would be weekends and public holidays,
and i am always counting down each week.
i can hardly believe i'll be home-bound on a saturday.
like no activities? or probably tired from the week of work.
spent the whole afternoon till 9 plus sleeping forever.
been having repeated dreams for weeks displayed in different scenarios,
yet all trying to get across the same meaning.
that it will hurts so much when one day you find the 2 people close to your heart betray you together,
they get together and you walk away knowing there's nothing more you can do anymore.
walk away and weep.
turn back and think.
tried to shake this bad feeling off but how am i gonna do so when it keeps coming back to remind me.
and i don't feel a sense of security/love coming from him nowadays,
not like the past when i know i could trust him without doubts,
he's been acting weird though he says he dont think so,
yet i feels it so though.
the way you see me in a different light,
how you no longer care,
how you no longer showers the same love you did once,
how you pretend to be scared of me when i touched you and showing me you're irritated,
how you used to put me in the 1st place but no longer the case anymore,
how you just change the topic when i start saying you've changed.
these are the things i experienced that you either did it on purpose or you don't think you're doing it.
am i being sensitive ?
you and everyone else knows i'm not,
i never was so sensitive and pick on small little things,
but the list is just getting longer and longer that i just don't know what else i can do anymore.
i just feel like i'm gonna break down anytime soon if i bottle it up anymore,
though i always don't seem to so on the outside face that everybody sees.
why is it when we quarrel, people always think i'm in the wrong and you're the victim?
why is it when i go out with my friends, people always think i am not accompanying you?
why the fcking hell does everybody blames me for practically everything that goes wrong for us,
just because i don't like to show that i am weak.
why do i need constant reminders to make time for you and talk to you,
when you don't bother telling me anything anymore?
tell me what to do then.
you can always change the topic or try to act funny when i talk to you about this,
you might not read this since i won't know whether you still reads my blog,
but if you do and choose to ignore,
then we shall see...
maybe i might hold on a little longer or maybe i won't...
i don't want to be blamed again for not taking this relationship seriously,
but i don't want to keep having the sense of betrayal creeping up on me every second.
P.S: No comments please
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
dragging my hands to start blogging or i shall leave this place to dust again as usual for 1 mth again?
forgotten most of the parts of the past week.
i only remember....
1. i didn't missed the 2 school days i had (considering how i skipped lessons in poly and was called the MC queen)
2. prawning on friday with shifu, jiahui, shin & ah gay.
and damn it! only shin seems to be catching the prawns.
i only caught 1 prawn in 3 bloody hours, shi fu 1 or 2 ? jiahui & ah gay totally no prawns at all.
shittest day for prawning (if there's such a word)
they went to catch what happen in vegas @ jurong point,
while i went to meet sweetheart to JB for late-night supper & some dvd shopping.
oh yah! the coming-back part at SG custom is always so damned pack even @ 3am in the morning. we got stuck like 1 hr or more. duhz!
3. wanted to spent my saturday at home watching ghost whisperer while waiting for dear to finish work.
but dre's hse was having a surprise party for nicole,
so i got half-invited by jiahui to go and i made her waited for like 1 hr 'cause i wasn't ready.
too short notice. heh heh.
well, so called "anti-social" me brought along my laptop to continue watching the show.
when nicole came, we hid at the staircase & some in the kitchen & tadah!
a surprise party started off with them drowning the bday girl with liquor.
MJ started soon after, and i lost 6 bucks AGAIN.
seems like i got no luck in MJ. only luck in "GANG" "PONG".
HAHA! "GANG" & "PONG" till they can't stand it.
when everything finally ended at 2 plus,
mr "nice" dre wanted to send me hm but lucky him,
cause dear came to fetch me to his hse.
we were supposed to watch the dvds we bought at JB,
but ended up, ghost whispering again.
4. sunday was mother's day.
wanted to bring my mum to The Line for buffet dinner,
but this day isn't a good choice since it's more exp plus packed,
most importantly, i am still not feeling well.
so we shall postpone it but i promise to bring her there someday.
we had a simple steamboat and ended the day.
and the past few days was filled with boredom at work,
quite a relaxed april & may.
gotta enjoy this state of peace before it starts getting busy again.
well, redang's finally near but it's still next friday.
planning a phuket trip but tired of looking for resorts to stay in.
any good recommendation for phuket resorts ?
good & cheap hor!
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
yeah its the 1st day of school after years,
and it feels kinda weird.
the class's filled with people from all walks of life,
from young ladies/guys to i-wont-say-old but middle aged women/men.
lucky i got the big bird & huat with me or i think i won't be able to keep my eyes open.
it's fun to have frens travelling to sch together & study together.
well, not exactly studying 'cause they're either looking for girls or crapping nonsense.
HAHA!
but big bird's serious when he copy my notes. LOL!
theory lessons always sucks. always sleepy.
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i m still having the nauseous feeling and the appetite's not coming back either yet.
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i am addicted to "Ghost Whisperer" and i think i am watching too much,
till i am having dreams 'bout it.
get scared sometimes but the stories are damn touching can!
you come and go as you please,
like nothing happened.
i probably should take the same approach then.
Monday, May 05, 2008
it sucks BIG TIME when i am sick.
and when i am really damn sick.
gosh!
my eyes are in a state of blur,
i feel like vomitting now and then,
i can't even walk straight,
and i am still not recovering after so many days of rest & sleep.
i wasted my whole weekend on the bed.
and yes,
it was lucky i could hold it through the bus journey of 45 mins,
and rushed to the nearest toilet
and gave up whatever was in my stomach,
which wasn't much except for some coke & totally no food.
totally have no appetite to eat anything,
nothing appeals.
damn! how should i describe this bloody feeling of being so damn sick.
yeah! i want to DIE!
thats the word..
nobody seems to care,
when all they see from the outside is a girl strong enough to be on her own,
even when she's at her weakest point and will never want to show it.
yet,
those who always seems to be weak on the outside,
gets more care and concern.
Welcome to reality.
where everybody looks only at the outside.
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i guess when one's sick,
one tends to get emotional easily.
yet,
i don't seem to know you anymore.
i don't feel your concern anymore,
you don't seem to be there anymore.
Friday, May 02, 2008
seems like time has turned back.
what a joke.
the way you smile,
the way you talk,
just makes me turn away.
recuperating at home.
down with fever & everything that comes with it.
just leave me alone.
please...
