Tuesday, July 31, 2007
just read through like 31 pages of my friendster testimonials.
LOL! nothing better to do actually.
just kinda miss the past.
some testimonials are just hilarious.
sets you thinking 'bout the past.
when you just know this person.
the things they write for you, and vice versa.
how time flies.
and how fast people changes.
Monday, July 30, 2007
Last Sat was JJ's bday so biggy ears and me finished work fast
and reached his house @ around 9 plus. sat around and talk with long-time-no-contact friends.
gab wanted to fetch EJ so we came along since we had nothing to do.
sitting the front was like WoooO~
well, thats because as usual, he drove like ghost rider. racing against death.
but it was hell of a ride! SHIOK!
after the pickup, we went back to JJ's hse.
had our late dinner. and headed off again in gab's car.
dropped EJ at J8 'cause he was meeting lit chun for movie.
Gab was supposed to go for a wake but we had a hard time finding the place so, gave up.
then off to SYL's hse. all 4 of needed to use the loo.
after that, biggy ears and MY went off with gab to head to biggy ear's hse 'cause she needed to change.
while me & syl went to pick up his sis, cousins & aunts and sent them home.
next we went to pickup my banana @ Dbl O.
and finally we reached our destination, MOS, @ like 12 plus ?
Had hell of fun over there. drank like nobody's business
and it was damn freaking funny seeing everyone SO HIGH!
just SO NOT their usual self.
but the most unexpected one was HF. LOL! she kept saying she's SUPER HIGH!
HAHA!
Kooch was another funny one. drank till DROP!
for me, its too long since i last drank, so i got high after a few gin tonic,
plus being so tired from work, legs got wobbly.
but lucky there was always someone i could count on to hold me steady.
and as usual, Smoove was packed with people.
totally no space to dance without banging into another person.
just hate to brush against other people.
UNCOMFORTABLE! thats why i hate going clubbing.
BUT, it was still SO FUN after so long.
i should say, its the company that counts.
and Oh Yah, we took like SO SO MANY MANY photos over there,
with HF's camera & gab's phone.
hope they send us the photos SOON!
after MOS, we headed to Joo Chiat to have supper.
felt like vomitting while eating and drinking coke, but still managed to pull it through.
and gab being the nice guy, sent all the CCK-ians home.
home sweet home only @ 7am in the morning.
ended up late for work on sun.
felt like shit. terrible headache + the stomach's churning all the way.
DUHZ! hate the after effect.
next up will be gab's bday this coming sat. celebration @ his house.
have to rush down after work again.
better be as fun or even MORE FUN!
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today was GOOD! finished work @ 10 plus.
going to read some pages of the book and off to bed.
just read botak's multiply blog,
http://thinkingofyou.multiply.com/journal/item/73
most will probably say that i'm pretty heartless
if i say i dont have much feeling when i saw this entry.
but i really dont feel much. just no feeling AT ALL.
why must he always say this kind of things.
i'm plain wordless 'bout him.
and yes, I AM heartless.
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YEAH! finally got rainbow hotel's number correct and managed to book the room!
SO HAPPY!
Air Tix + Hotel =$610
for 6 nights, so i guess it should be quite cheap.
should thank ZW who's in taiwan now, 'cause he checked out the number for me.
sweetheart has changed. treats me well and i love him.
sorry i cant accompany you these 2 weekends but you understand. =)
Thursday, July 26, 2007
OH!
did i forgot to mention taiwan's trip confirmed ?
im going twice in Sep.
31st Aug-6 Sep
Free & Easy with Biggy Ears & MY.
booked the air tickets 362 bucks and planning to book Rainbow hotel.
that will be SHOP EAT SHOP EAT till we drop.
22 Sep-29 Sep
Tour Package with my parents, my sis, cousin & 3 of my mum's friend.
sponsored by my parents so i just have to bring some cash along.
that will be quite boring considering the number of places we are visiting from the itenary.
but hey, its sponsored. haven go overseas with my family for like years.
i'm a happy girl....
time to update all those happening that went on for the few days.
guess i'm not a really good girl, am i ?
broke up with botak on mon and patch back with ZH on that same day.
many will ask how could i ? how could i hurt another person ?
well, this patching back has indeed hurt a few people. he hurt some while i hurt some, just for the sake of love and not being able to forget.
used all kinds of means and ways to deny the fact that i still couldn't forget.
even to the point of trying out someone else but who knows, what is not meant to be can never be.
so its better to hurt him now than later. definitely dont wish to tell him that i actually dont love him after he throw himself deeper into the relationship.
just cant understand why did he had to go and call wen to tell her those things. WHY!
another thing made me feel even worse. the idea of hurting her was really terrible. i never meant to. and i never want to lose her. the feeling really sucks and i hate it!
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on a brighter note, we are finally back together. =)
and i love him, even more than before.
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have not been sleeping well and enough for these past few days. same goes for my baby.
went to catch invisible target (NICE and FUNNY) on mon then went to his hse to sleep over. ended up watching dvd @ his hse and went to bed only at 3 plus.
woke up at 6 plus to go work. poor boy had to fetch me there and reach his workplace early.
tue was mum's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! I DEFINITELY LOVE YOU though i always like to disturb you. had our little family dinner @ Sunshine Place as usual and told them about the breakup plus the patch back.
well, i guess it's important to tell them.
and yesterday was probably the happiest day my baby had.
finally got his new car and he was grinning from ears to ears the whole night.
is it time to get back to my theory tests and start learning driving ? Kinda lazy actually.
went to Cine to watch Black Sheep with him & my sis. initial plan was to watch Die Hard 4 but tickets sold out so just watch anything. the movie kinda sucks!
after movie, headed back to shang to fetch RY and Biggy Ears to eat durians @ Geylang.
not as nice as the previous time but i guess it was still alright.
finally reached home sweet home at 3 in the morning. just imagine the sleepy face @ work.
cant get up to work every morning and i've to drag myself outta bed but my butt just wants to get stuck to the bed.
and today,
went to meet lao lye @ Raffles City for our SUPER-LATE lunch @ Out Of the Pan.
Chicken Noodles and Strawberry Crepe. YUMMY YUMMY! DELICIOUS!
walked around MPH and started discussing about Harry Potter.
speaking of that, the last book's finally out and i bought it on tue.
SO GONNA finish it FAST! after i complete the library books my sis and i borrowed.
took the mrt @ 530pm and only reached CCK @ 630pm.
freaking 1 hour sleeping in the mrt till my butt wants to protest.
i cant imagine the picture with my head swinging here and there without support and my eyes not opening throughout the whole journey. Totally no image left i guess.
Thats how tired i am.
but i guess i still cant compare to my dearest who is working @ shang now. not enough sleep and he forgot he was supposed to be working at shang today.
guess my updates are done. and i got to get back to my books.
today's supposed to be our 1 yr and 1 mth anniversary IF we didn't broke up.
But well, there's more months to come and compensate for the time we lost. =)
Monday, July 23, 2007
really confused now.
he's good
he's nice
he's handsome
everything a girl would want.
but though i hate to admit it(someone who always speaks different from what her heart thinks)
i have to admit,
i dont love him as much.
he seems to be shelter where i can hide myself from the past failed relationship just indulging in the happiness that he has been giving me.
but, my heart is shouting out its protests. that i shouldn't be treating him as a substitute just because the 2 of them are so much alike.
just what should i do ? my heart's failing me.
and to find out another fact has made me even more vunerable.
we really had a nice talk last night, 1 that has been overdue for so long ever since we broke up.
just like the past before we got together, i'm missing the past.
and there we were, jokingly blaming each other for the breakup.
and there we are, each with another different half now.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
tired from work
mixed emotions
mixed feelings
have no idea what to do
life's supposed to be great but it just isn't so
what am i saying ?
i have no idea
just probably emotional on this early morning.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
yawn. such a wonderful sleep today. slept for so so so long.
too many ktv sessions these week. starting to get a lil' sick of it. LOL!
i missed the old times of having a luxurious life; going to hotels to have expensive yet nice meals.
and then, end up really broke. =(
been shopping online for bags, clothes. need to refresh my wardrobe. i'll put up those online websites in my links.
OH YAH! everytime before i stepped into my house door, i'll remember that my newly-bought-not-long-ago slippers was stolen by some idiot. curse that fellow.
made me went back and buy another one. DAMN THAT IDIOT!!!!
managed to buy 1 jacket and now i'm waiting for my bag to arrive by post. HAHA!
always happy when i can have retail therapy. =)
But, i feel like boxing those 3 PIGS who made me wait for them 3 hrs yesterday. when they finally came @ 6 plus, we went to Cine straight. bought things then went to Chicago Steakhouse to have our dinner then to kbox, we went. sang from like 9 plus till 3am and we feel like dying already. imagine we wanted to sing till 6 plus. OH God!
I WANNA GO TO TAIWAN. EAT & SHOP; EAT & SHOP NON STOP!!!!!!
that will be my next destination. so gotta start saving up!
what a random post! got so many missed calls today when i wake up but too tired to call back since the time date back so early.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Thats why i hate blogging. why should i even blog when i cant blog what i am actually thinking without people spreading the news or commenting about it.
Thats why i also hate people linking me. For what ? let other people know about my blog ?
Duhz! Anyways, i love what Levonne wrote on her 12 Jul 07 entry. the red colour part. totally describe what i'm feeling.
i love this blog address but yet again, i gotta change it AGAIN.
why can people only blog about happy things. when they blog about unhappy things about friends, then news spread and when friends know what exactly she is thinking, they will put up defense and start retorting back on their blog. why cant a blog just be a place to vent out some fustration.
Hate this shit.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
YAWN~
just woke up from an afternoon nap, had dinner and just finished watching 1 episode of Supernatural.
now i'm actually preparing to go back to bed after blogging.
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let's do a recap for the past few days..
Tue was a whole load of shit work so worked like from 6am-1030pm. well, by the time i reach home and prepare to sleep. It was already 12 plus.
So wed, i was dead tired. had to run around and even help serve lunch without having any meal myself for the whole freaking day. finally could go home @ 430pm, then 1 of the staff Siti Rohana injured herself and so, the super-unlucky-me (that was about to go home) had to accompany her to SGH. Biggy Ears & Lao Lye finished work so they went together. All 3 of us was in a state of stoning 'cause we were all freaking tired already. we were like drifting to sleep in the hospital while waiting for the doctors and stitching. and yes, she had 6 stitches due to the cut on her shin area. Oh! we spent 4 hours waiting there for everything to be done.
when we finally were done, we sent her home and reached shang @ 9pm. then we rushed to lot 1 to have our meal. my 1st meal of the whole day. hard to imagine how i managed to struggle through the whole day without eating. then, we headed to TS's father's funeral @ Singapore Casket. 2nd time in 2 months, both friend's parent. Haii. hard to describe the feeling.
by 12am, we couldnt take it so we headed home. and kinda woke up late today for work but still managed to claim the taxi fare.
left work @ 3pm and have my long-awaited nap.
now i'm going back to bed to have my good night sleep. =)
gonna be busy next week.
B's brother getting married on Fri 20/07/2007 (nice date after 07/07/07)
Grandma's birthday on Sat 21/07.
and Harry's coming to JB next Thurs 19 Jul. YEAH!
Monday, July 09, 2007
my room's in a real mess now.
clothes all strewn around on my bed and old clothes that i wanna dump is all thrown around on my floor.
thats the half-result of clearing my wardrobe to make space for clothes that i wear nowadays which i think wont even hold up half of it.
usually i will be hecked 'bout all this issues and let the room be what it always looks. MESSY! but i'm real bored and i REALLY DONT FEEL LIKE GOING OUT!
i just got the off day to stay at home. which is kinda weird when i should be out there accompanying him. but i just haven't got used to it yet.
still the same old me. Freedom freak.
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i went to bed like 3 plus in the morning okay and i woke up at 1240pm. Damn that phone call that rang like no idea how long till i couldnt take it. so i was awake and on my laptop. surfed friendster and people's blog since last night for dont know how many freaking times. i gave up eventually and started watching shows. went back to bed at 1 plus 2, hoping to wake up at 3 to call Mac but who knows i only woke up at 5 plus.
and yeah, i still ordered Mac. McChicken Meal UpsizeD, McNuggets + McFlurry. which as usual, gave the nuggets to my brother 'cause i couldn't finish it and McFlurry is still in the fridge with so many mouths wanting to devour it. haha. lucky nobody dares to eat it YET!
DAMN! i better get back to packing.
Perhaps i dont love you so deep YET.
Perhaps my defense is still up unknowingly 'cause you hurt me in the past.
Perhaps i haven't trust you completely YET.
Sometimes...
i wonder...
How could someone change so drastically ? To the point of scary. To be able to see us work like shit and yet be able to enjoy themselves on the other hand. HAHA. what a joke! SO this is what friends are for, which i now really know.
Recently we're having major turnover in the office. trying out new people and people who should be friends just left heartlessly. But its ok, there's nowhere in the world where we cant survive without 1 person. Its just training another person and adapt to the different changes. But i'm really disappointed by how heartless her words and actions could be even though i didn't hear it straight to my ears. Waste of my efforts in the past to defend each of them when only 1 was worth it. Haii~
Utterly Disappointed.
And its just scary upon seeing all these changes. when so-called friends turned against us.
People reading this should keep their comments,thoughts and what they have read to themselves if they have no idea whats going on really! spread the word around and i'll make sure i'll change the blog address again or even close down this used-to-be private blog.
So perhaps i should also start being hard-hearted and start thinking 'bout my own career path. and also, for Biggy Ears after she sort out her thinking. Perhaps i should take up both bosses's advices since they have offered me a path no one ever had.
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Now i know.
Only few could really be called friends. Most are just acquaintances, just passing by our life. Friends stop and wait while acquaintances just rush away when we need help.
Perhaps this is life. human's nature to think for themselves.
Life, what a joke!
"Friends", what a bigger joke!
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I love my 'B. 07 Jul 2007.
07/07/07 definitely a special day.
Thursday, July 05, 2007
well. i'm back home @ 130pm. and YAH, i know its 230pm now. was having my lunch just now so i can eat my medicine now.
there's a chinese saying that goes "HUO BU DAN XING" which is absolutely SO TRUE! 'cause after the food poisoning, i caught a FLU! which is probably the worst thing to happen.
NO GOOD FOOD! NO GOOD SLEEP! NO ENTERTAINMENT! NO GOING OUT! EXCEPT i STILL have to WORK WORK WORK.
i 've been trying to hold myself through these 4 days since i caught the flu on Mon. 'cause nobody can work in the morning. =( which results in not getting enough rest and the flu became more and more serious.
so i went to our hotel's stupid Doc FOO to get some medicine. i always hate going to see him 'cause he's like a useless piece of shit who gets paid SO MUCH for his do-nothing job! He's a TOTAL CRAP! what was it that says Doc must be CARING and have "AI XIN", this guy definitely DONT have any!! so i still HATE him BUT i still need the medicine from him. =(
so after having the antibiotics and some kind panadol, i feel a LITTLE better without the splitting headache and body aches BUT i was still sneezing NON-STOP. its actually cause i didnt dare to take the flu medicine, he gave me a strong one that will knock me out so i thought best to go home and take it, and sleep the whole day through.
so yesterday, i went to my cupboard and took out my medicine in the past(those i fake mc and doc gave me those medicine). HA! and i found a plastic bag(NTUC plastic bag size type) full of cough mixtures, flu medicines. you name it, i have it. BUT at that crucial period when i need the medicine, ALL EXPIRED except for a few life saving ones that i needed for my flu. and my mum went nagging cause i just ate whatever that helps and she thinks its dangerous.
Thats why i went to that STUPID DOC to get new medicine.
i have been having early nights ever since the food poisoning incident. and yesterday i went to bed like 1030pm which was amazing cause i was never the early sleeper EXCEPT when i'm really very sick. and i woke up at 1230am, went to the living room and saw the analog clock with 1 hand pointing to 12 and 1 hand to 6, and i thought it was 6am. i was wondering why my sis was still playing with the laptop at 6 in the morning. then i realised, i just slept for 2 hrs plus and it was only 1230am. Duhz! so i had some salt water and went back to sleep. few hours later, at 3 plus i guess, i jumped up of my sleep. and i really jumped! LOL! my sis was like: "why ? what happened ?" there i was still blur cause my whole body was aching and nose was in pain. so i just said nothing and went to drink some salt water AGAIN and ate a strepsil. my strepsil was left in my mouth for hours till i woke up and there was still a bit left. but i had a better sleep when it was in my mouth.
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alrights. enough of my long due sickness. i shall talk about other things.
saw XY's blog and saw that she was talking about GST rise! haha. i admit i'm those typical singaporeans who will grumble about the 2% rise. its like ALOT when you buy expensive things lor. i just dont like the increase. so are they going to increase the pay 2% more too ? LOL.
well. on top of the GST rise, 1st July is really a fucked up day to change so many things. 'cause now pubs and clubs are smoke-free which is alright for me BUT not KBOX!!! how can i survive that few hours without smoking while singing! Gosh! reminds me of that day, it was Mon if i didnt remember wrongly. i met up with Biggy Ears to eat sushi, then Lao Lye came and they decided to go sing. so yah, we went though i was feeling like shit. there, me and alicia was thinking "now we take student package so we cant smoke in the room liao ah?" and we even went to the counter to ask, so we got embarrassed 'cause we forgot about the indoor-no-smoking law from 1st July. HAHA. we were SO embarrassed okays! But it was hilarious!
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Yesterday after work, went to Causeway Point to eat swensen with Lao Lye, Ah Chua & KL. and i managed to buy a slipper and some lingerie AGAIN. i think it was only last month i bought some lingerie. BUT nvm, who will cares whether their lingerie multiplies. even better, more to change! Haha. then while we were on the train back home, there was this really GAY boy sitting beside Lao Lye and this idiot guy sleeping beside me. i shall talk about that idiot sitting beside me, he was Half-SLEEPING and his legs opened SO BIG that my legs was shut TIGHT cause he was intruding my space. but fuck care him. the GAY boy was more interesting. he was on the phone with his probably project mate or something like that, talking about XiaXue. and we were looking at his way of talking and how GAY he looks. THEN, after he put down his phone, the interesting part came whereby he started scrolling through his phone pictures and ultimately stopping at 1 of his SUPER GAY photo and smiling to himself. GOSH! we were really TRYING to contain ourselves by not laughing but it was REALLY FUCKING FUNNY okay! That PIG ASS keep covering her mouth and eventually hid her face between her legs, so obvious to the guy that she was laughing cause her body was shivering with laughters. So she alighted before me and i was STUCK in the middle of the idiot and the gay boy. Duhz , what good luck! and guess what, that GAY BOY alighted at the same stop CCK! Wah! there he was standing behind me while waiting for the door to open, i was trying not to laugh at him and walk away fast so i could laugh. LOL!
enough of everything, its been a SUPER long entry. got to get back to med eating and go to bed.
Monday, July 02, 2007
I LOVE MY MUMMY!!
HAHA. 'cause she take VERY GOOD care when i'm sick now.
she cook porridge for me when i'm hungry. =)
so i'm a happy little girl but still stuck with my food poisoning virus.
thats makes me a half happy and half unhappy girl.
i'm going to eat my porridge. though i had sushi just now, i vomitted it out again so i'm hungry again.
catch up laters.
